02 Dec A Story in Staying Humble
As I was learning to CHOOSE ME, again, my ego was talking to me in a loud way. It was saying “you should know better because of all the work you have done on yourself and the work you do with others. You meditate and connect with your soul and you still went off track!”.
To put you in context, I’ve been working in the consciousness field for 10 years and actively working on my self-evolution for at least 15 years. I started meditating at the age of 9 and I am now studying how to master the “higher power” we all have access to.
I’ve done a lot of work on the ego whether it’s on myself, with my clients or what I studied, so I know it was trying to protect me from something – because that is what the ego does, it shows up when we don’t show up for ourselves. But I had to find what it was trying to protect me from.
Where was I not showing up?
To find the answer to that question, I started looking at what I had done in the last 10 months and that is when everything became clear. I had put myself aside (or I was not choosing me) and I had shame about it.
Shame is a very powerful emotion that takes on different forms and makes us act in weird ways. Admitting I had shame was hard because it was encouraging me to hide all the “wrong” choices I had made from the people I love and trust. I played the hiding and pretending game for a while…(you can read my blog about no more games here). I was trying to make myself and others believe something that wasn’t true.
The truth is that part of choosing me was about making peace with my shame. I had to make peace with the fact that for the past 10 months, I was not honouring my soul, which meant that I was not honouring myself. I had to accept the path I had chosen with all the consequences or ripple effect of my choice.
I had neglected my business, my kids, my friends and most of all ME. I had to make peace with the fact that despite all the experience, knowledge and wisdom I have, I am still human. And as humans we have to be ready to evolve and transform. And sometimes, we think we have learned a lesson, but in reality, the lesson was not complete. In this case, my lesson of choosing me was not complete, I had to finish my learning before I could move forward.
My shame was showing me how it feels when I don’t listen to the guidance of my soul; and let me tell you…it feels AWFUL!
So now I’m here, being very honest with myself by reflecting on how ready am I to honour my soul.
How ready am I do embody its power and live the life I truly want?
I am determined to fully integrate and step into the wisdom of this lesson. I can humbly say that the Human temptation is strong but I am looking forward to truly living the power of my true Self and I feel incredibly excited about it!
See you on the other side,
P.S. We are here to learn, evolve and expand. Having experienced mentor or guide next to you is always helpful to help us see past stories we create and really propel change. If you need help, this is my expertise. Feel free to book a session with me here.